I hadn’t realised that being in the spirit world would be such a challenge for me and that my own fear and thoughts that ran through my mind about my life, would prevent me from crossing over into the light completely.
My understanding was that when you died you went straight to heaven or that someone came for you. I don’t know if someone did, but what happened is I find myself in this place that is quiet and at times dark. There are animals and people here, but the people do not speak to you, they just get on with whatever they are doing, nobody bothers you here. I feel very lonely and when I have this thought a being appears and comes to talk to me. They tell me that I do not have to stay here and can leave anytime that I want to. I want to believe them, but I just can’t seem to.
I fell out with my family and friends and my daughter has abandoned me and doesn’t want to speak to me or know me anymore. I made everyone’s life a misery and upset so many people while I was alive.
When I died there was a priest and a lady at my bedside. The lady would come to my house, do some shopping, make meals for me and make sure I was okay. They both said prayers for me and told me that I would go into the arms of God and that my family and friends are waiting for me. But here I am .
The being that comes to me is helping me to learn to forgive myself. The being, which I think is an Angel, has told me that my family has forgiven me and that all has been forgotten. I do feel ready and each day I am closer to being re-united with everyone. It has always puzzled me as to what happens that you don’t cross over fully. I was told that in your human life you can experience great trauma and suffering and when this happens a piece of your soul breaks away and comes here, where it stays until you have retrieved it and resolved whatever it is that is troubling you.
To enable me, or anyone else who finds themselves here to cross over , you will need to seek the help of a soul midwife. These blessed and gifted people help souls to crossover to the other side. Soul midwife’s can either sit with you when you are very ill, they help to make your passing as peaceful and pain free as possible. If you want they can pray with you and can call in your Guardian Angel and family on the other side to come and take care of you and help you to reach heaven.
Sometimes like me, you will need the help of the soul midwife for a different reason. You may have already passed away but find you are still stuck here and are still earthbound. I did come close to a man on earth who was a soul midwife, he was sitting on a chair with his eyes closed. He must of sensed me as he opened his eyes and asked me out loud to come nearer to him. I knew he sensed me, as he told me exactly what I was wearing and what I looked like. I helped him by giving him an image of me sat all alone on the bench in the lower realms and a picture of my daughter as well. I said out loud in the hope that he would hear me that I needed his help to crossover and that I missed my daughter. He replied to me and told me not to worry that he would help me, but all I needed to do was trust him. He then lit a candle and then called in my Guardian Angel and my family to come forward for me. I then saw next to me the being that had been with me and my daughter. I was so pleased to see her. Behind them a door was open and bright light shone through it. The man asked me to go with them to the light. The being went first to lead the way and I was in the middle, I hesitated for a moment, but it passed and I walked behind the being and my daughter followed. I didn’t see the man again.
This place is so bright and you can hear the birds singing so clearly. I can even hear water running. Eventually I came to a house and outside was all my friends and family cheering and clapping. They were celebrating. We went inside where we had tea and cake and a few glasses of sherry. I was so happy, at peace and finally at home.
